Running Away?

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. – Psalm 37:23 (NKJV).

“What are you running from?”

That one question has plagued me for the last year.

Sitting in a restaurant in a college town in Utah, I asked my companion, “Have you ever thought about starting over in another state?”

I had a burning question on my mind the entire trip.  A decision I had to make stemming from a bad choice I’d made earlier in the month.

When I decided to move to another state, to start over somewhere else, I convinced myself that I needed to do it to heal from all I had been through with my mother.

That was true to some extent, but I wanted to leave the predicament I found myself in.   I didn’t want to choose between my two choices.  I wanted to escape the battle between my heart and my mind.

Only an interesting thing happened when I moved away.  I learned which choice I wanted to make.  I began to heal from my past.  And I realized that I ran away from making a choice.

I ran away like I always do.  Only to discover that the only place that has my heart is home.

Some times we have to move away to see how much things mean to us.

I’ve been gone for over a year.  I have been spending the last couple of months trying to get back home…this time to stay.

i don’t expect to pick up where I left off.  I wouldn’t expect to because I am not the same person I was when I left.  I know who I am.  I know what I want.   I gained needed clarity.

Though I don’t recommend running away, it is exactly what I needed to help and take the next step of my God-given journey.

#Jesus #Christ #God #Holy Spirit #Bible

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